Rambles of a Social Reject

somewhat done...

2007-02-05T13:38:05Z

5:32 am... 2 hours later...

all that caffine is out of my system, but i can now barely move my body, my neck muscles hurt, my chest hurts, and my brain is tired\

but my body wont go to sleep...

so im betting now, i crash and burn in.. 4th period or lunch... maybe even sooner...

Recomendation: Never Drink 16OZ of SugarFree RockStar Energy.

It hurts.

Badly.

If this is what it feels like to be a) smashed and/or b) hungover, i dont ever EVER want to get drunk....

Oh.. Ra..

2007-02-05T11:41:21Z

I don't think i should have drank that energy drink...

it feels like im going through withdrawls...

i feel... like complete shit.. my throat burns, and my entire body is twitching, and i cant take any tylenol PM cuz i have to wake up in 2 1/2 hours...

i want my body to get warm and stop twitching!

i can barely even type this im shivering so badly ~~*continuous backspace*~~

oh gods...

Im a moron...

2007-02-05T06:08:37Z

Sun, Feb 4, 2007 9:53:09 PM
I truly, truly am.

I really shouldn't be posting here but i am.

First weekend of the new semester, i have homework, which i started about an hour ago.

I.

Am.

Screwed.

im thinking ill be pulling an all nighter just because i have been distracting myself, which this, singing, reading fanfics... and staring into space, getting something to eat, going to the bathroom, anything to not do my homework

actually now that i think about it...

my weekend to do list.:

To Do List:
--Write Story
--Draw Camera and Label
--USH assignment

--Practice Script
--Math Assignment #2 (Due Tue.)

the second section is things im putting off, cuz they're not that important. well math is, and i think im killing myself by putting it off, just to get more homework tommorrow but thats life...

this weekend, my story is halfway done... due tomorrow
draw camera and label it... one picture of three done, and completly labeled, can finish part way through tap and tonight.
USH assignment.. i dont think its due till wed., so im thinking about saving it for later..

i dont even know why i bothered to write practice script because i have a gift of being able to read japanese aloud quite well... not to brag or anything of course, but i am slightly proud of myself for that... i think i scared my 先生　by talking through my section so quickly... kinda amusing..

so

ONTO FINISHING MY STORY!!!

which i might post here later...

while i was writing it, it started to morph, like most of my stories tend to do, and one version will be for my creative writing class, the other will become either a final book or one of the books of a series i am planning... it went from a librarian in new york, to being a scholar who couldn't write because of a shrivlled hand in my world, Chaos en Palurin.

to finish tonight: Story(i can maybe put finishing touches on tomorrow morning?) and my sketches
tomorrow: math omework, both assignments.., maybe practice script
tuesday: USH homework

yea, im done distracting myself now that i've thought everything out.. can you tell how big of a procrastinator i am? and yay for rambles, which is why my journal is aptly names, pointless rambles...

baibai
~edenrising

un, Feb 4, 2007 10:07:59 PM

I havevn't don this quiz in ages...

2007-01-21T00:50:28Z

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Low
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
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2007-01-13T19:14:51Z

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hihi... and i can pretty mmuch see this too.... XP

hm.. Snowday!

2007-01-11T23:32:26Z

yay 4 snowdays! and i dont have to make them up at the end of the year either! cuz im going to japan for the summer!

the real reason im posting this?

My cat is damn vindictive.

and...

Why are fishy crackers so Ra-damn addicting?

..... cant..... stop..... eating.....

~~why did my cheez-its run out...~~ TT^TT

...ooo.... they're colored..... o_o

I feel like posting a fanfic...

2007-01-05T18:41:15Z

Swing of Memories
Set at almost end of episode 25 at the scene of Naruto's swing. Team 7 has finished the first genin test. MAJOR fluff for Team 7 friendshipwise and light light angst for Naruto. summary sucks. oneshot. R&R
Complete - Naruto - Fiction Rated: K - English - Humor/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 684

“Whew… that was a hard test!” came a rather loud whine from a loud blonde.“Jeez… it wasn’t that hard,

Naruto,” said the pink-haired girl next to him. She rolled her eyes at said blonde before looking to a raven haired boy on his left. He smirked and shared his own comment.

“No, it’s just that he’s an idiot.”

“Hey! I resent that,” cried the blonde as he attempted to jump-tackle the boy next to him. Sasuke just stopped walking and Naruto crashed into the wall in front of him.

Poking the boy with his shoe, he said mockingly, “You were supposed to.”

Sakura just sighed as she stopped and stared at her teammates arguing. She, herself, was quite glad it was over. Spending an hour in that room was frustrating, especially while worrying what would become of her friends.

Naruto had hopped back up and tried charging Sasuke again, but the boy anticipated his actions and side stepped him. Instead of falling, Naruto just kept on running, laughing gleefully as he went.

“Bet you can’t catch me Sasuke-bastard, Sakura-chan!” he called back

Sasuke just stared after him before glancing at his female friend. They both shrugged and took off after him at an easy lope. Following his laughing voice they jogged until they reached the doors that led outside. There was a slight smile on Sakura’s face, and a stoic look on Sasuke’s as they reached the outside and
pushed open the doors. A melancholy sight greeted them.

Just outside the doors of the almost empty academy there sat a tree. From the tree a branch reached out and a swing had been attached to it. A sad smile graced the face of the boy who sat on it, swinging slightly in the wind. Sakura’s countenance changed to match Naruto’s as she watched the boy swing from side to side in his awkward position. Even Sasuke’s eyes softened at the sight.

“Naruto,” Sakura called out.

The boy glanced up quickly, surprised, before grinning sheepishly.

“I guess you caught me,” He sighed wistfully and continued to sway back and forth.
Walking over, Sakura pushed him over lightly, before joining him on the swing. Sasuke just leaned against the tree.

“Cheer up, Naruto,” Sakura said with a light grin. “We just passed the first test of the Chunin Exam. We should be celebrating.”

At those words, Naruto perked up slightly and lifted his head from where it was resting.

“Yeah.” A pause. “Celebrating.”

“Hey, dobe.” Sasuke grunted slightly, lifting himself from he lax position. “Tell you what. If you cheer up a bit, we’ll treat you to ramen.”

Naruto jumped up from his seat, his face aglow with happiness.

“Really!” he chirped, looking like he was about to pounce on Sasuke.

Sasuke looked from Naruto to Sakura, who just grinned at him. Warily he looked back at Naruto and nodded. He was tackled to the ground, too surprised to dodge this time. Naruto was back up in about 5 seconds grinning happily and shouting “ramen” at the top of his lungs as Sasuke stared up at him in bewilderment. Sakura burst out laughing at her teammates’ actions and gripped the side of the swing to stop from falling off.

As her laughter subsided, Naruto ran over to her and grabbed her hands, pulling her off the swing. Sasuke’s hands, which had been dusting their owner off, were grabbed as well.

“To Ichiraku’s we go!” was shouted by the hyperactive blonde, as the swing was left behind, blowing lightly in the wind.

Akikaze no Uta

2007-01-05T17:02:50Z

I've been looking every where for songs by Akeboshi. I loved their song Wind which was used for the end of the first naruto series, for those none anime nerds. I found one other song, Akikaze no Uta. Its a really awesome song, i highly recomend it! To anyone who bothers to read this, anyone else know any songs by Akeboshi?

Romaji

Sukoshi hito yori ki no ooi boku ni kimi wa komatte
Nan to naku tsunaida te wo tsumetaku hodoita
Kono saki wa mou boku no kotoba dake de wa kitto nanimo mou kaerarenai mama
You're tearing me down
You're tearing me down
Yagate hi ga kie atari ni wa sabishisa to kedarusa ga nokori
Boku wa mada tabi no tochuu da to ki ga tsuku yofuke
Rain
It keeps me calm It keeps me calm
It keeps me walking
'Cause I know you're never gonna stay

So long yagate ame wa furidasu
Sou kyou mo hitoritori nokosarete
So long machi ni ame wa furidasu
Sou kyou mo onaji kisetsu ni hitoritori nokosarete

You ain't gonna stay

So long someday I will So long I keep walking
So long someday I will So long I keep walking

You ain't gonna stay

English

I’m a bit more fickle than other people, and it drove you nuts
So you coldly took your hand away from mine
I doubt anything I say will make any difference now
You're tearing me down
You're tearing me down
Eventually the light of the sun dies, leaving loneliness and listlessness behind
Late at night, I realise I still haven’t reached my destination
Rain
It keeps me calm It keeps me calm
It keeps me walking
'Cause I know you're never gonna stay

So long, eventually the rain comes
Yeah, today, once again, I’m left on my own
So long, the rain comes to this town
Yeah, today, once again, I’m left on my own in the same season

You ain't gonna stay

So long someday I will So long I keep walking
So long someday I will So long I keep walking

You ain't gonna stay

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I am a sick, twisted, and disturbing person...

2006-12-19T22:25:56Z

BUT I CAN"T HELP IT THAT MY MIND WORKS THIS WAY!!!!

it just.. happens..

i watch movies, and the first thing my mind does is match up boys with the possibility of slash...

take for example... Finding Nemo. The exchange student living with me and i found it on tv and decided to watch it... and my strange mind decided to match up nemo with...

Gill!!

I.. think its quite cute... but there is something wrong with my head, so dont take my word for it... i dont actually like that picture.. i shall find another one...

never mind... they have no good pictures out there.... what i will do is post links with fanfiction on them...

An Interlude on Mount Wannahokaluugie
(Rated R for non-explicit you-know-what's-going-on.)
Pairings: Nemo/Gill
Author's Comment: I can agonize over it as much as I want, but the truth is, I wrote Disney fishslash, and no amount of agonizing will change that. So, rather than think there's some moral high-ground I was shooting for with this one and am missing, I'm gonna give up and say here, read the silly fishy love-that-dares-not-blurp-its-name, anyone who's so inclined.

What It Feels Like
finding nemo. 2004. sexual content; nemo/gill futurefic. He had been able to feel himself slowly growing up since a long time before the tank fish came to the reef. What he needed to know was about when he was going to be done growing up and what was going to happen, and was he going to move away and--

shinra_lackey
LOOOOOTS of fanfics...

to lazy to continue...

Daaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyuuuuuuuuuuuuuum

2006-12-05T21:35:59Z

I haven't update in ages... thankyou erin for getting me back in...

though i am douting that i will update often....

i still need to figure out how to work this...

like how do you do the "#cutid=1" thing? TT^TT

hm... lets mess around,,,

blah...

blah...

ifeedthecrows @ 2006-04-15T23:35:00

2006-04-16T06:37:31Z

new books.. this is damn helpful. IGNORE!

2006-04-16T04:19:16Z

#1
Mai, the psychic girl. 1
Kudō, Kazuya
#2
Nausicaä of the Valley of Wind
Miyazaki, Hayao
#3
Nausicaä of the Valley of Wind : story and art
Miyazaki, Hayao
#4
Dragon Ball. Vol. 1
Toriyama, Akira
#5
Dragon Ball Z. Vol. 1
Toriyama, Akira
#6
https://catalog.kcls.org/search/aTomino%2C+Yoshiyuki./atomino+yoshiyuki/-2%2C-1%2C0%2CB/exact&FF=atomino+yoshiyuki&1%2C18%2C
Everything by him... In other words, the entire Gundam series'
#7
Battle royale. Vol. 1
Takami, Koushun (omg.. i didnt know this was in America!!!!Finnaly! YAY FOR MORE UZIS!!*bambam*)
#8
Blade of the immortal. [1], Blood of a thousand
Samura, Hiroaki
# 9
Chrono crusade. Vol. 1
Moriyama, Daisuke
# 10
Cyborg 009. Volume 1
Ishinomori, Shōtarō
# 11
The demon Ororon. Volume 1
Mizuki, Hakase
# 12
Dragon voice. Volume 1
Nishiyama, Yuriko
# 13
Happy Hustle High. 1
Takada, Rie
# 16
Imadoki! nowadays. Volume 1, Dandelion
Watase, Yuu
# 17
Immortal rain. Volume 1
Ozaki, Kaori

to lazy to continue.. this entry has been sitting for..
3-4 hours..
yea..
off to get more music videos!
=D

Sammi is dyslexic! lmfao

2006-04-11T01:55:10Z

i feed the crows: What do michael jackson and playstatins .have in common?
TheLoveBug17: uh
TheLoveBug17: enlighten me
i feed the crows: They're both plastic and little boys like to touch them
i feed the crows: I'm gonna get slapped..
i feed the crows: >.>
TheLoveBug17: =D
TheLoveBug17: what, you think I think Michael Jackson is innocent?
i feed the crows: No
TheLoveBug17: good
TheLoveBug17: miss crazy
i feed the crows: I normally get hit for being perverted
i feed the crows: >.>
i feed the crows: Btw
TheLoveBug17: not by me
i feed the crows: Gravitation is fucking hilarious
TheLoveBug17: i hang out with thu
TheLoveBug17: miss "i wanna lick you"
i feed the crows: XD
TheLoveBug17: she's just as bad as you
TheLoveBug17: if not
TheLoveBug17: worse
TheLoveBug17: >>
i feed the crows: Well
TheLoveBug17: or at least more direct
i feed the crows: I helped corrupt her
TheLoveBug17: you taught her, though
TheLoveBug17: the student has surpassed the master
i feed the crows: XD
TheLoveBug17: *gasp*
TheLoveBug17: you'll have to work harder now
i feed the crows: Nah
i feed the crows: My mum said its not classy
i feed the crows: *snickers*
TheLoveBug17: that's because it isn't
i feed the crows: Wow
i feed the crows: Your reactions are disappointing..
TheLoveBug17: i live to disappoint
TheLoveBug17: OMG
TheLoveBug17: i'm dislexic!
TheLoveBug17: i typed in sidappoint
i feed the crows: Hahahahaha
i feed the crows: Dyslexics against drugs!
i feed the crows: Just say on
TheLoveBug17: on?
i feed the crows: ...
i feed the crows: Idiot
TheLoveBug17: no!
TheLoveBug17: i didn't think you meant for me to say on
TheLoveBug17: i just don't know why you said that
TheLoveBug17: it doesn't make sense
TheLoveBug17: you're "just say on"
TheLoveBug17: what the hell does that mean?!
i feed the crows: Ityped
i feed the crows: Dyslexics agains drugs
i feed the crows: Just say on
TheLoveBug17: yeah
i feed the crows: >.>
TheLoveBug17: i know
i feed the crows: Normal people are
TheLoveBug17: what the hell
i feed the crows: Against drugs.. Just say no
TheLoveBug17: fuck
TheLoveBug17: i hate you
i feed the crows: Oo
TheLoveBug17: you lysdexic santa
i feed the crows: Do you get it?
i feed the crows: Oo
TheLoveBug17: *rAWr*
TheLoveBug17: yes
i feed the crows: Finnaly
TheLoveBug17: gosh
i feed the crows: I'm posting this
i feed the crows: X3
TheLoveBug17: it's all lies

Sammi... No baka!! Huahahahahahahaha!! Do yooooou get it? >.>;

just sammi... can't describe

2006-04-09T08:06:15Z

Sammi...
Is the oddest, craziest, and coolest person I could call my best friend..

She is someone I'm not afraid to argue and fight with because I know she's not petty enough to drop my friendship over a simple argument.
I can fight with her and not worry about loosing our friendship.
And that is a very good thing as we have many things to fight about.
We went and saw 'V for Vendetta' saturday night and we had an argument about that. Right now, I can't even think of which point we were fighting about.. It had something to do with philosiphy.. I think?
But it was fun to watch her get frustrated..
And sammi, if I went to far, I apologize now. I love you. Xp wether you want it or not..
Oh gods, chunny is corrupting me..
Oh well.
I'm in a good mood.
Thankyou for being an awesome friend sammi. =>.<=

Another book list revision.. trying to hit 15 entry's cuz of pics..

2006-04-07T23:37:30Z

im sick..
ifeel like shit..
its spring break.. FINNALY
i get to spend the week cleaning
cleaning my room
cleaning out mylaptop
cleaning out my hardrive
and cleaning out my computer.
and hopefully reorganizing my room

Tokyo Babylon. Vol. 5
Clamp
Tokyo Babylon. Vol. 6
Clamp
Tokyo Babylon. Vol. 7
Clamp
XxxHolic. [4]
Clamp
XxxHolic. [5]
Clamp
XxxHolic. [6]
Clamp
Gravitation. Vol. 12
Murakami, Maki
Batman : child of dreams
Asamiya, Kia
(wooh! japanese version of batman!
Mai, the psychic girl. 1
Kudō, Kazuya
Nausicaä of the Valley of Wind
Miyazaki, Hayao
Nausicaä of the Valley of Wind : story and art
Miyazaki, Hayao
Dragon Ball. Vol. 1
Toriyama, Akira
Dragon Ball Z. Vol. 1
Toriyama, Akira
https://catalog.kcls.org/search/aTomino%2C+Yoshiyuki./atomino+yoshiyuki/-2%2C-1%2C0%2CB/exact&FF=atomino+yoshiyuki&1%2C18%2C
Everything by him... In other words, the entire Gundam series'
Samurai space opera
Okuda, Hitoshi (i hade to go through 4 pages of Ranma 1/2 to get to this..)
Battle royale. Vol. 1
Takami, Koushun (omg.. i didnt know this was in America!!!!)
Blade of the immortal. [1], Blood of a thousand
Samura, Hiroaki
Chrono crusade. Vol. 1
Moriyama, Daisuke
Cyborg 009. Volume 1
Ishinomori, Shōtarō
The demon Ororon. Volume 1
Mizuki, Hakase
Dragon voice. Volume 1
Nishiyama, Yuriko
Happy Hustle High. 1
Takada, Rie
Howl's moving castle. 1
Miyazaki, Hayao
Howl's moving castle. 2
Miyazaki, Hayao
Imadoki! nowadays. Volume 1, Dandelion
Watase, Yuu
Immortal rain. Volume 1
Ozaki, Kaori

actually..
i have no clue
why i made this post
seeing as im about to pass out
or throw up..
either works..
but..
no more updating.
im getting off this computer and sleeping..
just like chunny told me to..
=.=;;
good night..

Ive been dumped!

2006-04-06T00:54:35Z

I do believe angel has finnaly dumped me from her group of friends..

this is making me kind of sad..

im sorta in a slight case of shock right now..

chirs has dumped me too..

i asked angel if she wanted to come to my movie night on friday.

she said she was busy.

"with what?"

"tennis...
and then we're going over to chris's for a sleepover."

who is we??? >.<

ill take it, sammi, thu, herself, brian, james... ect..

this IS slightly depressing..

i know we really dont hang out, so its not that bad..

but the fact that we dont hang out anymore is whats depressing..

shes a climber.. just like yume sais.. and all of them are asian..
its cuz im white, isnt it? i mean this seriously..

this will seem selfish of me,, but i cant help but feel it..
its depressing me, because i used to always spend the night at chris's house with her..
and now i bet she spends tons of time over there..
with brian and james..
i dont really care if she does..
but i feel left out of the old group.

damnit..
this is making me think again.
our whole fucking group has been breaking up since highschool started..
and since im one of the drifters..
im currently floating in space..

hmm...
im thinking..
and i believe angel definatly falls under the 'prep' category...
she probably still thinks shes under the 'asian loser' cantegory..
both sammi and thu think that as well

~~idiots... the lot of them.. angel's even an airhead.. a perfect addition..~~

all three are offically labeled, 'Asian Preps'

gah..
what am i doing..

oh well..
im sure shes happy..

at least she hasnt forgotten my name..

i really wish i was back at kellogg.

really. really. wish.

Part three

2006-04-02T02:43:59Z

Part three of the [e][d][e][n][r][i][s][i][n][g] story.

2^nd Moon, 21^th day, 15^th year of High Lord Marius’ Reign

Journal of Atemis Woods; Highborn Child of the Master Claudis, Head of Mirtek Wolf Clan, and Mistress Ximna, Head of Zhand Vampire Clan

Sunrise

~*~

I was kept in hiding most of my life, as the faith in my father as a Clan Head would deflate if they knew he kept his hybrid daughter around. The only other two whom ever knew of me and were ever kind to me was the lady wolf my father married when I was 6 and my step-brother, Merrick, who was the same age as me, but would take over as Clan Head if my father had been able to retire. Merrick goes to school with me as Adriana, his mother, could not take care of him and I while running the clan until Merrick is of age. But to keep his cover a Clan Leader’s son, we both agreed that he would have nothing to do with me at school, except for the nights of the full moon.

Everyone at this school takes classes corresponding to their race, and each race has special rules attaining to them. I will tell you of the vampires and the werewolves as they are the only two I know in-depth.

Once a month, the vampires are released into the surrounding forest, called the Woods of Eden, to hunt animals and drink the blood they need to survive for the continuing month. Same rule applies to the wolves, their day being the full moon. No other students are allowed on the grounds during these nights and the doors and windows are boarded, locked, and warded. During the day, classes are canceled for the vampires and wolves respectively. The farthest into the forest anyone can travel during break on these days, is to the river that is on the south side of the citadel. The other three directions happen to be cliff, so no one can go very far in the first place.

Whether it is break or the day of a hunt, I spend my time in a small clearing I made on my first night of hunting as a wolf. It’s located on the edge of the small river, in the corner of a crevice filled with rocks, creating a mini rapid pool. I love this place because of the solitude and the water is perfect for swimming in on hot days. When it was winter, earlier in the year, and cold enough to freeze, I was able to slide across the river on the ice, like one of those Human ice skaters. I ran into several of the rocks that were jutting out, though.

There is a young willow next to the clearing, with which I have spent many hours braiding the branches together to form a sort of hut. I used this in the winters after a hunt, before the sun rose the next day. The braids prevented the snow from getting in, and made a good netting to keep the heat trapped.

My clearing. My tranquility. My little morsel of life. My piece of Eden. This is my place. Mine.

It’s the one thing that lets me feel some normality. And I’ll protect it with everything I’ve got.

I believe I’ve droned about my life a bit too long. I apologize. Ha, not really. But this writing is great reliever of stress. And I think I’ve gotten the point of the clearing being mine.

But time has flown out my window, greeting the sun as it rises over the mountains in the distance. The girls will be waking soon and I need to clean myself in the bathroom before them or I’ll never get in. Then again, there’s no need to clean, as tonight is the night for the Vampire hunt. I should probably get some sleep before tonight, or the last my blood energy will be used. Off to get dressed then. Good-day!

-Eden Rising

--Atemis Woods

gah.. my night is ruined..

2006-04-01T03:27:44Z

i hope sammi doesnt read this..

she kind of ruined my whole night.
i was going to go and ask a bunch of people if they wanted to come over and watch a movie, or go see one.
but she beets me to it by asking if i want to go see 'V for Vendetta'
i say yes, because ive wanted to see it for ages
but then her mum comes home 15 min before the movie is to start and says we wont make it
why couldnt we just go to mountlake 9?
but oh well.

she made up for it
shes having movie night at her house tonight
we're watching walk the line
^_^
yay.
sorta.
..
yea..
baibai

oh, by the way.
Gazette is just as hot as Dir en Grey
<3_<3

twitch

2006-03-30T05:03:49Z

i found awesome Sev pics..
omg..
sooo cool
*stares in awe*
this is my fav HP character btw.. followed by Tom Riddle and Harry and Draco and Lucius and Remus

very few people can draw snape this well..
and i have fallen in love with this artist..
<3_<3

OMG! so kawaiiiiiii!! I <3 RenxHorokeu!! (attack of a rabid fangirl)

2006-03-27T05:16:10Z

im obsesing over another pairing..
this time Shaman King
Ren and Horokeu
but
but
they're soooooo cute!
i cant help but be addicted

*dies of loss of blood through nosebleed*
this is why i love shounen anime
because fangirls love to pair random male characters together
if you look, you'll notice that yaoi and slash pairings out number straight pairing by a large amount...

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai!!!!!!!!!!!!! ren make such a cute chibi!!!!!! =^_^=

ren is chinese and horokeu is japanese..

THis is one of my fav pics.. cuz i like horo's hair.. i dont really like ren's tho.. not in this one..

I love ren's outfit... it shows the scar he got from being stabbed in the chest by a long sword.. he almost died too.. actually at this point i should be believing him dead because the new manga hasnt been released and at the point in the manga im at, everyone but yoh has given up on him... By the way, Ren almost died (diesZ) because he protects horo from getting killed.. so cute <3_<3

And ren is supposed to be the badass who's been raised all his life, learning how to kill.

By far, the hottest picture i've found of the two.. you can see rens scar in this one too..

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!!!!!! *squee*

horokeu's other name is Horohoro or just horo

ok so..
just go here.. VVV
http://www4.big.or.jp/~no-tsuru/mankin/index.html
here ^^^^^^^
and click anyone of the three links, apart from the one that says top.. it will take you to more pics.. im tired..
good night..

Part 2 of 'Eden Rising'

2006-03-25T05:57:01Z

Part two of the [e][d][e][n][r][i][s][i][n][g] story.

“Ready?... Begin!” Mr. Yohmei shouts and the metal begins to clash.

The swords class has begun. My first class of the day, and by far my favorite. Learning to use weapons is mandatory thing at this school because without it, we would be susceptible to the Humans and unable to defend ourselves; that is, if we didn’t use our claws first. Using the sword, our world is less likely to be discovered.

Students have the choice of learning archery, sword or staff. Right off you can tell who will take what. Those who manipulate magick will pick the staff because it helps control and balance their powers. Girls who don’t fall under the category of magick manipulators, will pick archery; in other words, cheap shot pansies that wouldn’t dare go into direct combat. And finally the boys of the non-magickal fields take the swords class; me being the one exception.

I chose this class over archery because I’ve known how to use a broad sword since I was 5. This class allows me to learn about the smaller, thinner and more analytical swords and style. Fighting the way this allows, it is an outlet for the stress and anger I feel towards being singled out by the world. The fierceness I show is probably how I made it to the top three; 3^rd being myself, though I vie very closely for second as I know all the tricks and moves my brother uses. Merrick and I are far behind from the 1^st chair slot, though.

Xaos Ishtar. Highborn Son of Master Zeks, Head of the Ishtar Vampire Clan. An albino, a social recluse, and possessed by a Fae. Faes are the elemental spirits or gods that take on a living creature as an avatar, feeding off their life energy and in return, giving the host unimaginable power. The spirit also drains the host of color, thus making him an albino. He is a social recluse by choice, and no one bothers him about it, most being either too scared or too lowly to be able to approach a Head’s Highborn Son, especially from such a powerful clan. In the instance of his Fae, he could be considered a hybrid like me, but they are completely different circumstances, and so he is respected while I am ridiculed. I am not jealous of him though. Having a Fae is stressful on the mind, and one must have strong mental barriers to prevent the Fae from taking over the body completely.

He is one of the few who can best me in most of the classes assigned to vampires. I am on a higher level than him when it comes to Healing magick, though that is most likely caused by having been sired by two Healer clans. Currently he is sparing with my brother while I am stuck fighting the 4^th chair student. Lucius Foret, the one man out for my blood, and seriously.

He fought so hard to get to fourth just so he could be on a closer level to me so he could attack me without getting into trouble. He has had many “accidents” as well. But so far he is playing fair. I block his high down swing, knocking it aside before lunging forward to stab him in the stomach. My jab knocks him backward onto his arse and Mr. Yohmei calls for me to be more careful.

Lucius is back and his feet and I get a cold feeling in the back of my mind. I look at his face; it is smoothed and emotionless, except for the eyes, which blaze with a mixture of hatred and plotting. I now know to be extra careful, despite the fact Yohmei said to be careful with Lucius and not myself.

We both hold defense stances as we face each other, before I lift my sword in a side swing a carry through with a swift upper cut. My swing swerves slightly as the oversized and threadbare glove on my hand shifts. Oh, crap. Lucius lunges at me, but instead of his blade heading towards my torso as it should have, it hits my glove and rips into it, reaching skin. I can feel the cool steel bite into my wrist and my hand goes limp. My sword clatters to the floor and my arm drops, taking Lucius’ blade with it and pushing it further into a vein. By the pressure at the end of my arm, it seems to have hit my wrist. I damn this bloody glove of mine; now bloody literally.

Blood is seeping through my dirty white glove as well as onto my sleeve. I curse a loud before ripping my hand away from the sword still in my wrist and Lucius’ hand and yank at my jacket. People in the room stop to watch. At the lack of noise, Mr. Yohmei comes out of his office.

“Get that jacket off of you before you ruin it!” He screeches at me.

“I’m trying!” I snap in response, as its hard enough to use one hand to get out of the difficult straps. Xaos approaches me and quickly helps me out of the ‘straight jacket’ as I have officially dubbed it. I am very surprised and I'm sure several others are as well, but my wrist hurts too much to care at the moment. When my wrist is finally free, many gasps and a few thuds are heard through out the room, the amount of blood pouring from my arm slightly shocking. Even I have to pause and stare.

As is common with vampires, if a deep cut is given and a decent amount of blood comes out, the blood energy that escapes can still be saved if the blood is re-drank. So I lift my wrist to my mouth and gather as much of the coppery liquid into my mouth before swallowing. A few of the werewolves and elves in the room make sounds of disgust. Mr. Yohmei is at my side collecting my bloodied gear and Xaos is still slightly to my right and behind, standing. When my wrist is relatively clean, I gather half a notch of blood energy into the middle and index finger on my left hand and bring it to my right. On the first sweep, any infection that could have gotten in is removes. The second sweep closes the weeping veins. Gathering more blood energy, I sweep my left fingers over my right wrist again and the wound slowly begins to heal. Gods, am I thankful for being good at this.

When Yohmei has returned he glares in my direction before telling people to get back to their places and begin sparing again. The few elves that passed out are woken up. I stay where I am.

I fear that if I move I might fall over. More blood than I thought must have escaped, because I feel very, very drained, especially from three rounds of Healing magick. Xaos surprise me again by placing a hand on my shoulder.

“Are you alright? I can tell you lost almost too much blood. You might want to see the nurse.” His calm voice sounds out, but the fact that he was being nice to me scared me. No one is nice to me.

I shrug my shoulder from his grasp as calmly as I could, which isn’t much as I'm almost scared out of my mind and luckily I only stumble a little before regaining my balance.

“I'm fine. I don’t need your help.” I'm proud that my voice doesn’t waver with the emotions I'm feeling. ‘This is a prank. You know how to avoid these. Set your head straight and think.’

“I still think you should see the nurse.” He says steadily, not perturbed in the least by my actions. “Mr. Yohmei,” He called to the teacher.

“Yes. Xaos. What can I do for you.” The teacher replied, cheerfully, ignoring me.

“I'm taking Atemis to the nurse’s ward. I believe she lost too much blood.” His voice is still calm and steady.

I suddenly realize that if he takes me to the nurse’s ward, we will be alone the whole time it takes to get there. My eyes widen at the realization of what could happen, and as I'm standing behind Xaos, I glance at the teacher, whose face had paled and was glaring at me. I looked pleadingly and shook my head, ‘No. Don’t make me go.’ He glances back a Xaos, a ghost of a smirk on his face and he nods his head in acceptance. Oh gods no, please don’t let him hurt me.

Xaos turns back towards me and I quickly school my features. He beckons me to follow him, and nervously, I do. I stand behind him the whole time, my entire body tense, waiting for an attack, despite the obvious fatigue my body was feeling. At the nurse’s ward, before entering, Xaos turned around, and I stiffened, the hairs on my body following my example. He looks me over frowning. Before pulling a deep black vial from his pocket. He offers it to me before saying, “This is pure blood energy. On Hunt nights, I collect the extras that the Fae gives off and store it incase of emergency. When Nurse Kava gives you more blood, take this 30 minutes later. It will fuse with the rest of your blood and keep you replenished until next week’s Hunt night.”

I stare at him, absolutely speechless, but accept the vial none the less. What is he getting at and what is he on? I heard some rumors about makil weed being sold…

He opens the ward room doors and walks in, approaching the absent minded Nurse Kava, who was oblivious to whom I was and so gave me the blood I needed without fuss. I was given a cot to lie on, and while I settled down to sleep, I remembered the blood energy I was to take and checked if 30 minutes had passed. I realized I must have already drifted off at some point as Nurse Kava was back in her office and Xaos was long gone. I downed his blood energy and instantly felt myself filled again, and the fatigue, brought about normally by a good hunt, took over. I fell into a peaceful sleep, only to be awakened hours later by a teacher and sent back to my dorms.

~*~

yes.. part 2.. yay... baibai now.. *passes out*

i wonder if this will work..

2006-03-18T01:01:12Z

...

2006-03-16T01:46:47Z

*boom*

my mind has finnaly blown up from dir en grey overload.

thats my update.

Oh, and i got in trouble during wasl.

there were a bunch of people in the library.
most of the sophmore class, in fact.
so i decided to take a picture.

im an idiot, ne?

yes, i thought so too.

i dont give a damn if you know fench or not, but
go here
http://akuronooka.free.fr/
best fing Dir en Grey pic site ever.
if you know where to look.
^_^

I <3 KAORU! He has fucking PURPLE hair!!!!

i actually kinda wanna streak my hair purple...
but my mum wont let me.
boo..

first post.. yay for Dir en Grey!...

2006-03-12T10:03:17Z

Im stealing this off my myspace.. cuz im lacking creativity to rewrite it.. -.-;;

"i <3 dir en grey.

ive been obsessing over them all day.

because i found awesome pictures.

and ive been in love with their music since i found it on mIRC a while ago.

so..

kyo is lead singer..

and hes fucking SCARY!

he has these wicked contacts that block out all the color of his irises.

and he has the sunken cheeks.

but hes so cool!

but my favorite is Kaoru.

soooooooooooo cool! *stares at pic*

and shinya...

and totchi...

and die...

in other words..

all of them..

yea..

i have links to two music videos. "Child Prey" and "Obscure".

"Child Prey" is amusing because its rats versus humans, battling it out in space.

*stare* flashy lights... http://us.video.aol.com/video.index.adp?mode=1&pmmsid=1474628&referer=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.singingfish.com

and then there is "Obscure".

a fucking creepy video if i saw one.. but its still cool.. cuz obscure is a wicked awesome song.

zombie geisha! http://video.freevideoblog.com/search/dir+en+grey/0/624322F5-8AFB-4D18-9E3F-115FE687941F.htm

and this next mv..

shows just how crazy Kyo is..

and how wicked Die and Kaoru are..

"Increase Blue" Live http://video.freevideoblog.com/search/dir+en+grey/0/B350F0D1-51BD-4808-8C3D-539CA26697FE.htm

and a random clip with their song heaven in the background

random clip thing + "Heaven" http://video.freevideoblog.com/search/dir+en+grey/0/F4FB3709-2166-405E-97FB-B0E6B97ED288.htm

and the last one..

a hand made mv.. not by me, but some random person.. its sooo cool. and its got clips from the "aint afraid to die" video!

unofficial music video http://video.freevideoblog.com/search/dir+en+grey/0/6DF3B98D-2625-42E5-8C9A-6E7A67BC0B17.htm

and so yes.. go watch"

yea.. yay for music videos!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=kM_2Y02BYoU
on more..
last one.. but.. im an addict.. i cant help it..

thas Kyo. he's lead singer of Dir en Grey. real name is Tooru Nishimura. He's 29.

That is Die. hes a guitarist. His real name is Ando Daisuke. Hes 30.

then there is Kaoru. MY FAVORITE!! hes so cool... He's also a guitarist and is the mastermind behind Dir en Grey's music. Anything written has to go by him first tho. Real name is Niikura Kaoru. Hes 31. damn well doesnt look it... none of them do.

Shinya. He looks like a girl. x3 and i think he's dating Die? i dont know actually. i think i screwed up on the translation. the site wasnt english. it was german. -.-; He's the drummer, but he's really shy. which is kinda like me. im a precussionist and quiet. ha. his real name is Terachi Shinya. Hes 27.

finnaly there is toshiya, or Totchi by fans. Hes the bass guitarist. real name is Hara Toshimara. hes also 27. ill just post random pics now.. cuz of lacking anything to do.

Kaoru-sama! kakui!!! >.< lead guitar

ra be damned i want his boots o.o yay for leather! x3

two wallpapers
http://distraction.february-rains.net/wps/deg4.jpg
http://perso.numericable.fr/~maucathe/photos/wallkaoru.jpg

Toshiya! bassist!

kyo in the background

wai... pretty eyes. o.o

yay for crossdressing

i want, i want, i want

Shinya! Drummer! Crossdresser!

i want those pants!!! so cooool!

like i said, crossdresser

yes this is a guy. a hot guy, but a guy none the less. He is gay, btw (a plus for staring)

Die! Guitarist!

waaah! i want these pants too!!! >.< i wonder if hot topic has them yet?

he has such pretty hair.. o.o

and last, but by far not the least..
Kyo! Lead singer, and all around psycho!

pimp cane baby!

his shirt is wicked! i want >.<;;;

and as an ending.. i gots group shots! x3

^^ die and shinya ^^

^^ toshiya and kaoru ^^

and i am done, seeing as its almost 2am. nightnight.

Rambles of a Social Reject

somewhat done...

Oh.. Ra..

Im a moron...

I havevn't don this quiz in ages...

Random Quiz!

hm.. Snowday!

I feel like posting a fanfic...

Akikaze no Uta

I am a sick, twisted, and disturbing person...

Daaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyuuuuuuuuuuuuuum

ifeedthecrows @ 2006-04-15T23:35:00

new books.. this is damn helpful. IGNORE!

Sammi is dyslexic! lmfao

just sammi... can't describe

Another book list revision.. trying to hit 15 entry's cuz of pics..

Ive been dumped!

Part three

gah.. my night is ruined..

*twitch*

OMG! so kawaiiiiiii!! I <3 RenxHorokeu!! (attack of a rabid fangirl)

Part 2 of 'Eden Rising'

i wonder if this will work..

...

first post.. yay for Dir en Grey!...

twitch